To All Blogger Friends, Please Read.

once more fellas, please pardon my absence.
i'm still overseas right now,
esp for those who buzzed me to get an x-Link,
i'll do it as soon as i get back to my home country.
it's about a week forward.
thanks for all understanding.
God bless you all.

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As the Deer..

Hmm.
pardon my absence these days..
i'm not in a really good circumstances here..
my eldest sister passed away..

2 days ago at the mortuary...
an instrument was played amidst the mourn...

it was a really tough moment for my family..
i can't bear,
it appeared like a dream..
it's all seems unreal..

well, it's really been my first experience at this kind of situation,
seeing her corp.. geez.
it's my sister.. i couldn't even believe it..
hope this is not a time twisting game.
a where-to-hit-the-ham circumstance.

oh, i've been a Christian for abt a whole lifetime..
and i really really sipping in this song,
but it has never been this awesome since...

it was in the mortuary played..
maybe no one realized..
but, it's His grace flowing upon us..
i can feel that...

As the deer panteth for the water,
So my soul longeth after You..
You alone are my heart's desire,
And i long to worship You..

You're my friend and You are my brother,
Even though You are a King..
And i love You more than any other,
So much more than anything..

You alone are my strength, my shield,
To You alone may my spirit yield..
You alone are my heart's desire,
And i long to worship You..

I want You more than gold or silver,
Only You can satisfy.
You alone are the real joy Giver,
And the apple of my eye.

what an awesome... super awesome God...

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She...

San Diego,
Tue, September 9, 2008.

it's been 4 days since i arrived in San Diego...
and it's been 5 days since my eldest sister passed away.
yes i know, thanks in advance for the sympathy..

it's a long suffering for her,
she suffered from a breast cancer, which was started about 5 years ago.
well, it's still a miracle she survived for these years..

what can i say tho...
these are m family's though moments..
a sibling of mine has gotten home to Father's dwelling place..

no more emails from her,
no more her laughs,
no more talks...

well, we're just human beings..
what comes from Him, comes back to His almighty hands..

i can't say anything more..
it's just,
i'm thankful that His great power and grace fulfill every of us, in every single seconds right now..
and i know, she's now in peace, all the best in His great plans...

i just want to sing this song,
dedicated to my beloved siste, words from God..

it's 'Chosen as Mine' from Hillsong..

Here I am so close to you,
Know My voice, I’ll never leave you..
For I have loved you since before the sands of time were made,

I love you still and always will..
You’re chosen as Mine...

My Father wants to bless you now,
Receive from Him all that you’ll ever need.
Come spend eternity with Me. My heart’s full of love for you.
I love you still and always will,
You’re chosen as Mine...

Cries in the desert, My child, I hear them.
Tears in the valley, My lovely, I count them.
You’re so precious; you were on My mind as I died.

I love you still, always will.
Chosen as Mine..


i just need her to know,
that even we didn't make it to reach San Diego before your time had came,
i just want her to see us finally came to this place..
it was her dreams..

esp with me,
yes sis.. i'm here now..
you see?

we love you..
but you know what,
God loves you more than we do...

:')

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